perspective: lost and found.

well, there is just nothing like an evening with cca to give me a little perspective. first of all, i miss those people and those times so much! second of all, just getting the opportunity to spend time in a place where you just felt God's hand so present is amazing. you start to forget what that feels like sometimes. the altar was so crowded that the old staffers that were there had to go up to help counsel, and sometimes there is nothing like helping someone else draw nearer to God to help you do so. last night gave me perspective on why i do [or don't do] certain things, and why i am the way i am. there is a purpose for all of that, and there are times when i lose sight of that fact and get all caught up in other things. my determination had started to fade, but now i think i regained a little momentum. thanks.

it was so great to see everybody, and i miss them like crazy even more now! i thought it would help the withdrawal, but i think it just made it worse. i'm just pray that next summer i will get to spend my time doing what i love most! have a terrific summer, friends!

-lovingly-
k

writing for the sake of hearing my keyboard.

i just feel like writing right now. no particular thing to say. just writing. i have a busy week ahead of me. it starts with busy saturday... orchard, wine tasting [which i'm really looking forward to], and malissa's birthday party at side street. i hardly think i can stand all of the excitement. then sunday it's just work, but then it's back to commerce to get completely set for my cheer camp the next week. i have to start choreographing at it kind of sneaked up on me. so i have to come up with all of that among the excitement of the weekend.

let me tell you this camp has drained me. i have been working on shirts and shorts and uniforms and everything. but i can't really be complaining because i'm doing what i love. you really can't beat that. on the upside we picked up 2 more girls in the last 2 weeks. that is amazing. now we have six, 3 older and 3 younger. so underneath the stress i am really starting to get excited.

i am kind of starting wish i had a daytime job. it would give me something to do, but i will be alright eating and sleeping and being lazy during the day. really. i'm sure i'll manage. and now, i will wrap all of this up. i know that if you've made it this far, you're probably thinking that i need to shut up now. so, i will. much love.

have a blessed day!

-lovingly-
k

everywhere.

so today... i was kinda feeling bad about my legs. They're getting a little jiggly and what-not. i go to wal-mart to pick up my prescription, and i was in work clothes [soffe shorts, a t-shirt, and flip-flops]. this little old lady was behind me in line and when i was leaving she told me that i had the nicest legs and that i was "just darlin'." it was so sweet, and even though it was a shallow and vain thing to be feeling badly about [the jiggly legs] it was just what i needed. it's just funny how things happen like that. i've been blessed more in wal-mart this year than anywhere else. so, if you're wondering, God is everywhere... even in wal-mart.

-lovingly-
k

ah, summertime.

it smells like chlorine and sounds like the clanking of dominoes, the mexican train kind. so far, this summer has been good.

business is less than booming but going nonetheless. continue the prayers for a little more growth. we just need one or two more girls to make a real team. well, that and a little more cooperation from them as far as attendance goes.

the days are long and boring, but the nights are relaxing and filled with laughter. i love my friends, and i am so glad that i get this last summer with them. we play dominoes, hang out by the pool, and surf on see-saws. they also feed me sometimes, which is a quality i really enjoy.

i started at the orchard last weekend, and while most complain about that job i really don't mind it. now that we don't really have to deal with setting up the stuff it's better [for me anyway]. i'm getting better at talking to people there these days, but i don't enjoy having to stand up so long [neither does my back]. but it pays, so it works for me.

i found an apartment to move into at the end of the summer that is way cheaper than my current one. it also allows pets so my dear dog, hamlet, gets to come live with me too. that will be great. hopefully she'll call for me to put down my deposit this afternoon. i really just lucked into that one. a-mazing. i also lucked into the money for the deposit. well, i guess i should say i have been blessed beyond measure in every way.

i'm just working, relaxing, and laughing my way through the summer. i'm counting down those 6 long weeks until vacation with all of those fantastic friends of mine. it's looking like a good summer. just say "ah."

have a blessed day!

-lovingly-
k

wow.

my dearest friends--

i know you've been missing me and my constant updates on my life recently so i thought to myself, "self, you shouldn't neglect your duties any longer."

so here i am, in front of the computer trying to figure out all of the things that i need to tell you guys. and, naturally, it all leaves my head the moment i start typing. so i shall do my best.

last semester turned out wonderfully. i made all a's [which if you had media law, ethics, and internship in one semester too, you'd be impressed]. work is starting to look up. i finished in the media relations office for the semester. i got several stories on the website and got to help with the new ad campaign for the university too. i'm excited to go back there in the fall, and it helped me kind of find my strength in my writing. also, my new business is slowly picking up. currently our all star squad is small, but it should be building up soon. we also have some great opportunities opening up to work with squads in the area. as far as a personal life, well, that's about the same. i have kind of been fighting with myself lately, but i know what to do. no need to fight, just surrender. i know what i need, and i know what i'm looking for. and i know that settling will just hurt more than being alone for a little while. my friends are the bomb too.

with everything happening, i am just constantly amazed at how God continues to prove his faithfulness to me even when i show him over and over how unfaithful i am. his grace is unbelievable, and he just keeps on giving. i'm really working on trying to give too and live to please him. i know that i can't ever match his count, but i know that he never expected me too. amazing grace, indeed.

so, in short, life is good. i am doing quite well. and God is good all the time.

-lovingly-
k

the rundown.

okie dokie. so much has happened lately.

let's start with the biggest piece of news. as some of you know, the gym i work at was having a lady come in to start a cheer program. turns out that this lady is flaky and it just falls apart. it just fell apart last week. well, after so much thinking and so much prayer i decided to take matters into my own hands and do it myself. i am bringing mj into it so she can help me, and we are starting a new all-star team in sulphur springs [so tell your young cheerleader friends]. there you go. we don't have a name yet or anything. in fact, we just decided yesterday and are having to move insanely fast with everything. so please keep us in your prayers and the program as well. we are essentially starting our own business, and that is no small task.

in other news, i made cheerleader for A&M-Commerce, but i probably won't be able to do it now because of my own cheer program. which is okay. i was excited about cheering, but now i am really about to live one of my dreams. so that is even more exciting.

other than all of this cheerleading not much is happening. i am almost done with this school year, and i will only have one more to go. i am working at the orchard on weekends this summer, so if you want fresh fruit, i'm your gal. that's just about all i believe.

have a blessed day!

-lovingly-
k

oh, you know, musings.

today i felt like i'm starting to get the hang of life. i know that means i'm not going to feel that way very long.

monday i get to ask a congressman some questions, and i don't know what i'm going to ask him. pressure.

i'm starting to come around to the thought that i just might be a writer [in some capacity] for the rest of my life, but that doesn't mean that that's all i have to be. [cue light bulb]

i'm gonna wait for the extraordinary, no matter how much i want to settle sometimes.

it's official. i will be a fifth-year senior for the whole year. and i'm hoping it goes quickly.

i lack courage, but i'm getting there. slooooowly.

i'm thinking of cheering next year. i have to decide if i miss it that much.

on this night, friday night, i'm going to bed early. way early. i'm tired.

my internet is being ridiculous, so i apologize if you feel i've neglected our internet friendship in any way.

i'm pretty much out of things to say. perhaps more sometime soon.

have a blessed day!

-lovingly-
k

p.s. i am currently searching for cheaper living arrangements. suggestions welcome. roommates welcome. call me.