and so begins the end.

i was sitting on my couch, and i was sweating since it seems to be perpetually hot in here. i was thinking about the clean laundry that needs to be folded and the dirty dishes that need to be washed and all of the things that i forgot at the grocery store yesterday.

and suddenly, my mind got quiet. and there was this rush of emotion. the finality finally hit me. this is it. my college career is almost over, and in less than a year i'm leaving here and embarking on a new life. i suddenly came to see what all i will miss in this place. my whole life is here almost. my closest friends, my jobs, my dogs, and my home. how do you just pick up and leave something like that?

i know it's not as harsh as it sounds, but it just became real. i'm in my last classes, and the spring schedule is out. all of the classes i need are there. i almost don't have courage to take them. once they're done i have no plan. i have no idea. i only have dreams, a handful of which i have already accomplished and so many more i have to still reach for.

even though i don't know where i'm going, i'm really glad that i got to stop here for a while. now i'm just waiting for my real life to begin.