one step closer.

Wow. That's basically the sum of this last year. I can't believe how wonderful it has been, and how much growing I've done (although not physically, sadly, I'm simply destined to be short).

I have had an entire year of living on my own and paying my own bills, although barely sometimes. The thing that has struck me the most this year is simply how gracious and faithful God has been to me. I have never had to miss a payment or go without for long. And I have to admit that as far as my walk goes I have had some ups and downs. But even when I was saying "not right now" or "not yet," God was saying, "I'm still here for you." That means everything to me, and that's why I am so grateful that I serve a great and loving God. He loves me even when I'm less than lovable.

While this past year has been wonderful, this next year shall likely prove to be challenging. In May, I will actually graduate college, a concept that becomes more real each day. Inevitably, that is a concept that also garners the "now what are you going to do" questions that make me feel so ignorant. You'd think if I knew one thing, it would be about myself and my own life. However, since my life is, in fact, not my own, I'm still waiting on those instructions. Right now, I'm satisfied with the small decision I've made about the summer. I'm definitely going to staff with CCA again, unless I get some absolutely amazing job offer that I just can't refuse (and that's highly unlikely) pops up. So I'm taking the summer to just be and maybe find some answers, but more importantly sharing the greatest of all answers, Jesus Christ, with people. I think that decision has made me happiest of late. My heart is overjoyed at the opportunity, and I may be going to Costa Rica with CCA too.

So, beyond the summer, I am clueless. I'm not sure what kind of job I want or if I want to go to graduate school or what I may want to study in graduate school if that's the case. I have so many dreams. I may just run away to New York or, better yet, London and see where life takes me. Although that's unlikely considering my need for plans and such, but I'm content to wait on the plans that God has for me. Sometimes I wish He felt the need to clue me in a little, but all in due time. It is only December, after all.

I guess that's enough from me, but that's where I am in my life at the present time. I'm just trying to make the most of the time and the people that I have been given, and I thank God every day for all of you. Thank you for being a light in my life.

-lovingly-
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